Depression and Atheism?
September 4th ,2020
Today’s a great day.
Because after a week of procrastination, I felt like writing my blog. I am not
sure when’s this gonna get posted but @12:30 AM in the night, I finally feel
like doing something. Probably I’ll fap later this night, before sleeping, but
right now I am in the mood to write something. Today’s a great day because the
work was too less that I completed doing it in 4 hours. I hope the next 4 hours
would be free. And someone is pinging me now...........
MOTHERFUCKER!
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12:46 AM
I was managing the tickets (issues) that comes at US hours and the sad part is I am the only guy who can check these issues right now. There are a lot of sub teams in a project. At the start of this year, we were a sub team of 4 and now, I am the only one left.
With an experience of one year in this same shitty project, I must say that I started getting the hang of it. So, work stress for me would be the time I spend on clearing a ticket and I would try to clear it as fast as I can to enjoy my escapism. If there are any RCAs then I have to say goodbye to my escapsims. The Last one week had been a hectic week of doing nothing and idleness.
It happened at the point of my life when I was enjoying the best book series of my life. I am not sure it would qualify as a book series, but I must say it’s a series of books written by one single author.
Only one book to finish his bibliography and the procrastination happened.
As I said earlier, I was in a high stress and his books balanced my mental stability. NSK, my friend, was also stuck in a similar kind of situation as me. He said that he was in depression and I thought whether I myself was depressed. TBH, I won’t call it as a depression, because I had my fair share of depression in my schoolings.
Depression is dreadful. But when it gets satisfied fucking our asses, it leaves a lot of ass burns which would later become useful assets for us. Two of those ass burns would be Atheism and Pessimism.
I won’t say atheism and pessimism are good by-products of depression. For me, these are still two most acidic ass burns of many that comes after depression. Especially Atheism.
After dealing all these years with the dilemma of Theism and Atheism, I finally found solace in Atheism. It never lasted long and a new dilemma raised which soon started making me a Hypocrite.
It was the dilemma of being Agnostic and being Atheist.
This Dilemma started when I started reading the author whose one book was pending for me to read.
As I said earlier, it was his work I started enjoying after finishing the fairy tail anime.
It was his works that hooked me like crazy to know what happens next in the plot.
It was his books that made me to challenge my temperament to an extent where I started becoming a Hypocrite.
And lastly, it was his books that lead to this procrastination of mine.
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