Sometimes, it feels like procrastinating the shit out of yourself is the only way to escapism. But mostly it leads to a demotivating numbness. Many would consider this as depression but, IT IS NOT. Also, what is not a case of depression is “high stress”. In fact, stress and depression are used interchangeably in many situations.
In simpler terms, when stress becomes overrated, people start calling it as depression.
I am no psychologist and I am not an optimist who gives life changing advice. But I am the kind of guy who gets cringed out by the fuckers who claims that they are depressed when they are clearly NOT!
The best way to handle stress for me would be reading books, listening songs and watching movies.
My friends have different methods to burn out their stress. My friend SJ would ride a bike to steam the stress off his head. Some may find running a mile to burn out their stress and even talking to girls would decrease the stress to a certain extent for someone.
Then comes the dangerous of all, the எனக்கு யாருமே இல்லையா guys.
These அன்பு மட்டும் தான் அனாதை bitches’ level up their stress a bit. This eventually evolves into depression (according to them of course). And, this is where the dangerous part comes. They’ll start marketing their depression to let other people know that they are fucking depressed. What they don’t realize is that it’s just another attention seeking tactics.
In fact, attention seeking is not a bad thing. It is bad only when it’s done by the girls. Bitches always try seeking attention. 🥱 I used to brag about the movies that I’ve watched or books that I’ve read. In the end of the day, we all want to feel nice about ourselves. Except girls, obviously🤔
But the fact of the situation is that these mofos are JUST STRESSED AND THEY ARE NOT IN DEPRESSION.
August 28th ,2020
I was in a heavy stress at this point of time and this time around, I even lost my interests in my escapisms. When you are stressed and when you have no interest in doing anything you like, that’s when procrastination comes in our life and eventually fucks our ass.
Stress comes in all shapes and forms and the one that’s most popular would be work stress. It is one of its kind because it is when you know you must do the work and you don’t feel like doing it. But, the stress itself will start kicking in when you try to do the work. It’s the actual process of the work itself was causing the stress in the first place.
Yet, I don’t blame my office or anything (TBH I don’t have the courage to do it)
Fortunately, the only thing that allows me to do is the money. Yes, I was doing the 3rd shift of work (6:30 PM IST to 3:30 AM IST) for the first time in my life. People justify us getting extra money for the shifts and it would compensate for the stress. The truth is that, even if the company cancels the shift allowance, I would still work. (or they would make me work) It is not that I like my work but, I hate the work I do so much that I want to finish it soon. If I like my work, then I would enjoy the stress (or I am just guessing).
Eventually I started liking the 3rd shift but that didn’t change the fact that my work become less. In fact, after my increment (yes IBM offers increment after 1 year for the graduate hires and my batch got a whopping 25% increase in our salary as increment) my project granted me special permissions to access the DB and the application. As an addon, I got the work baggage with a messed-up weight.
Here too, people will (now in caps, PEOPLE WILL) justify my work by my increment but, hey, eating shit never gets tastier by adding honey.
I don’t blame my office or work or the night shift.
I always found way to delve into my escapisms whenever I finish my work. I donno when and why it started happening but, it had happened alright, and I couldn’t get myself out of it for a week now.
IT WAS THE BEGINNING OF MY PROCRASTINATION.
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