Dravidian Otaku

  TO MY FRIENDS To: வெள்ளைசாமி, குபேரன், சென்றாயன் I reminded myself of the day when I first masturbated. It didn’t do any good. Then I think about the moment when Priyadarshini proposed me. Not quite good. I couldn’t get any good or happy memories. At last, I was tired of thinking about the happy scenarios. I let it all out. I cried. I covered myself inside the blanket that my mother gave and cried. It was a hand stitched blanket with little doodled designs that my mom herself had embroidered. It was my first night staying in a college hostel. I was sharing my room with 3 other boys. One of them was short and dark as me. But he had a bulkier image while I had slim image with broad shoulders. The other two looked like twins. They both had dark tanned faces with slim and narrow shoulders. The only distinguishing thing that separated them apart was the height. He was the tallest guy among all of us. His name is Sendraayan. His look alike short guy is Guberan and the other o...

  TO MY PARENTS அன்புள்ள அப்பா அம்மாவிற்கு, I feel awkward to write both of you a letter. But when you find this letter, I would have gone somewhere out of your reach. I am going to be doing what I was supposed to do in the first place. Appa, as you often tell me, I am a coward. I didn’t feel brave enough to face you and say what I want and how I feel. I thought you would never listen to me. I realise now that I was not making you to listen me; I was not loud enough. And Appa, I will never have guts, ever, in front of you. So, I decided to write a letter. Amma, the one I am going to miss the most is you, but I must do what I have to do. And brother, take care of Amma and Appa for me. I always hated you and I will never like you. So, fuck off and do what I say. Before I finish this letter, I want you to understand why I am taking this decision. And please don’t try to find me by any means. Even if you tried, you won’t find me. So, please avoid finding me. I was alw...